I live in the United States where I will say, the 2020 Pandemic has been the worst in the world. For a long time I’ve been silent about it, as I was observing and taking it all on. My entire life changed, as well as those around me. We all stopped going out, socializing as we traditionally did, I stopped going to an office and worked solely from home, and I worried about my security in every aspect, as many other Americans did. I knew once the Corona Virus infected my town and many like mine life would never be the same, and watching this virus infect people was going to be very hard.

little did I know at this time it was about to set off so many historical events I wouldn’t even be able to process it. From my window I watched protests, riots, brutality, lying politicians, reckless acts of selfishness by my government, people lose their homes, their jobs, and their ability to provide for themselves and their family, AND no help on the way from anyone. I watched people die live on the internet. I watched authority figures beat people who were doing nothing provocative. I watched my own city trap me with in its walls. It was very hard to sleep or do anything feeling helpless from my home.

I spoke to a lot of other creatives during this time and we all seemed to feel frozen and unable to make work. I felt bad or like I had lost touch in my ability to draw. Anything I once enjoyed drawing seemed silly. Frivolous even. I felt it productive to turn all my social media into a hub of information and over night became a reporter for my small following. So much misinformation and propaganda was flying around it was a lot to keep up with. I wanted to pause, share definitions of words, informations backed by studies, and misquotes that were being blown out of proportion.

Historically Artists are both activists and members of a propaganda party. We’ve worked with governments to create campaigns to help citizens fall in line, and revolutions to tear the oppressive regimes down. This felt like one of those moments to me. All I could think to do was make work that helped a cause, for free, offer my tools to those who needed it for free, and to share a first hand perspective of what I was seeing. Yet I still felt so frozen.

It is not too often in one’s society that you experience such a traumatic event you build networks with in it to reflect and try to change, yet that’s what the Pandemic of this year set us all to do. Communities with no food or money, counted on people to find it, and build it back. No greater power has or will save them.
In asking myself what can I do to help, I just made work, and wrote about how it made me feel. Everyone else organized the food, money, and infographics. All I had was how I felt…vulnerability.

Below are the works i’ve made during October of 2020. The first time since the Pandemic ‘began’ in March I had made work. Each work had an elaborately written caption to encapsulate concepts and feelings of each portion of quarantine, protests, lack of funding and health care, etc, that the United States faced. It’s what I saw, what I heard, and what I felt. A true snap shot in time. And it’s really only the beginning. I do not know what will be coming next.

Let Them Eat Cake @Kimkardashian 's "I am humbly reminded of how privileged my life is." Is the new "Let them eat cake"⁠⠀ .⁠⠀ I am getting pretty sick of rich/celebrity Class Solidarity.⁠⠀ .⁠⠀ Class Solidarity is an awareness of shared interests, ob… — **Let Them Eat Cake**
@Kimkardashian 's "I am humbly reminded of how privileged my life is." Is the new "Let them eat cake"⁠⠀
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I am getting pretty sick of rich/celebrity Class Solidarity.⁠⠀
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Class Solidarity is an awareness of shared interests, objectives, standards, and sympathies creating a psychological sense of unity of groups or classes. It refers to the ties in a society that bind people together as one.⁠⠀
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People hoarding wealth could be doing A LOT more to help EVERYONE during this time in the pandemic. Using platforms for factual awareness, using their wealth to invest in the wellness of others. Or frankly just shutting up and not cluttering up the news with nonsense and pointless scandal. If there's one thing I think we could say has been observed during the 2020 pandemic it's that Celebrities, ARE NOT JUST LIKE US. They throw halloween parties [@kendalljenner] with safety to the wind. They promote hanging out in maskless conditions, and partying during a time where we are all sacrificing our social lives with social distancing and frankly losing our jobs left and right [us being regular civilians] ⁠⠀
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Reminder the 1789 French Revolution was caused by the 'common folk' starving wile the monarchy [remember Marie Antoinette?] held lavish parties, and at like, well, kings. Long story short, that ended with 'the people' beheading and eating the monarchy and other wealthy people. Thus the phrase of "eat the rich." ⁠⠀
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As my last drawing for Drawlloween, the day before the election - I'm just going to say we're all tired, and hungry, and worried, and stressed out. So when people like Kim Kardashian post about their private island birthday bash and show off their exorbitant wealth - it's pretty tone deaf, and we're all so sick of it. I am hungry for cake.⁠⠀

No One Listens to Those Who See⁠⠀ A first responder is a person with specialized training who is among the first to arrive and provide assistance at the scene of an emergency, such as an accident, natural disaster, or terrorism.⁠⠀ .⁠⠀ USA COVID-19 C… — **No One Listens to Those Who See⁠⠀**
A first responder is a person with specialized training who is among the first to arrive and provide assistance at the scene of an emergency, such as an accident, natural disaster, or terrorism.⁠⠀
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USA COVID-19 Cases⁠⠀
7,590,964
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Deaths⁠⠀
214,081
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PPE⁠⠀
Personal protective equipment is protective clothing, helmets, goggles, or other garments or equipment designed to protect the wearer's body from injury or infection. The hazards addressed by protective equipment include physical, electrical, heat, chemicals, biohazards, and airborne particulate matter.⁠

Eugenics ⁠⠀ a set of beliefs and practices that aim to improve the genetic quality of a human population, historically by excluding people and groups judged to be inferior or promoting those judged to be superior.⁠⠀ .⁠⠀ In the 1960s and 1970s, the I… — **Eugenics** ⁠⠀
a set of beliefs and practices that aim to improve the genetic quality of a human population, historically by excluding people and groups judged to be inferior or promoting those judged to be superior.⁠⠀
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In the 1960s and 1970s, the Indian [Native American] Health Service (IHS) and collaborating physicians sustained a practice of performing sterilizations on Native American women, in many cases without the informed consent of their patients. In some cases, women were misled into believing that the sterilization procedure was reversible. In other cases, sterilization was performed without the adequate understanding and consent of the patient, including cases in which the procedure was performed on minors as young as 11 years old. A compounding factor was the tendency of doctors to recommend sterilization to poor and minority women in cases where they would not have done so to a wealthier white patient. Other cases of abuse have been documented as well, including when health providers did not tell women they were going to be sterilized, or other forms of coercion including threatening to take away their welfare or healthcare. Native American women and men do not fully trust the U.S. government due to forced sterilization, and remain skeptical of contraceptive technologies.⁠⠀
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A whistle blower from the ICE camps currently in place in has accused physicians of continuing this practice today. ⁠⠀
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We should really take the cover off of Women's mouths. ⁠⠀

Angels with Guns are Actually Demons Notice where sources say "The militia group plotting to kidnap Michigan Gov. Gretchen Whitmer" or "Michigan Domestic Terror Plot Sends Shockwaves Through Militia World" there is a major difference in words and th… — **Angels with Guns are Actually Demons**
Notice where sources say "The militia group plotting to kidnap Michigan Gov. Gretchen Whitmer" or "Michigan Domestic Terror Plot Sends Shockwaves Through Militia World" there is a major difference in words and their meaning. This is also a GREAT time to take note of which News sources are showing bias in headlines like this. ⁠⠀
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Domestic terrorism is the unlawful use, or threatened use, of violence by a group or individual based and operating entirely within the United States⁠⠀
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A Militia is a military force that is raised from the civil population to supplement a regular army in an emergency.⁠⠀
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I also would love to know, when is enough enough? Movie theaters have been shot up, high schools, elementary schools, Gay clubs. When...are we going to say 'that's enough violence for us' ⁠⠀

White Snake. ⁠⠀ Symbolically white snakes are a good thing. They're a sign of purity, positivity, new beginnings. In dreams they're meant to be optimistic. This image doesn't feel like that though...all I was thinking as I drew this was "I just don'… — **White Snake. ⁠⠀**
Symbolically white snakes are a good thing. They're a sign of purity, positivity, new beginnings. In dreams they're meant to be optimistic. This image doesn't feel like that though...all I was thinking as I drew this was "I just don't want to see". Knowing these two things this image feels really hopeless. But is that true? I don't really know anymore. Is my hope dead? Is my hope trying to envenomate me? If it does, will I remain positive? Is this me saying I'm hopeless? Is this me saying I'll be ok. I don't really know. I think this is a feeling we all feel. At the end of the day...what is happening? How much longer are we to be isolated? How much longer must we be masked? What does life look like after "this" is over? And in the grand scheme of our individual life spans, this isn't a lot of time...7 months, to spend 'out of style' yet, it feels like a life changing perspective. This is all rather temporary if you think about it, but, it will effect us for the rest of our life

In Death You Can Take Nothing With You.⁠⠀ . ⁠⠀ The rich get richer and the poor get poorer. I believe Greed is something all humans are capable of, and it is an impulse we must have virtue to control. Watching Majority Leader Mitch McConnell laugh m… — **In Death You Can Take Nothing With You.⁠⠀**
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The rich get richer and the poor get poorer. I believe Greed is something all humans are capable of, and it is an impulse we must have virtue to control. Watching Majority Leader Mitch McConnell laugh maniacally in the debate the other day was BONE CHILLING. He giggled as his opponent listed out points to illustrate where the system is broken and thusly causing people to suffer, and frankly that he could be doing a lot better than he is [thus this debate]. The man, laughed. It just had me really reflecting on the saying "people over property" and thinking how 'people over power' or 'power to the people' are all mixed in there. Greed comes with stuff, and power. Somewhere deeply rooted in us it's a survival instinct to hoard resources and display dominance. but this is so weird. the way we are currently going about this is all so weird. The rich get richer and the poor get poorer. The impoverished are forced to have their children to fuel the companies the richest people own. But at the same time, when you starve people...they will get hungry. And when you're eaten alive as a price for your actions, what happens in death? Are the diamonds still so sweet?⁠

So What’s Next? We've all taken quite a beating this year. As I was drawing this one I was really thinking about all the hard things we've faced this year. Or our loved ones have faced. When I need to put on a brave face to make it through something… — **So What’s Next?**
We've all taken quite a beating this year. As I was drawing this one I was really thinking about all the hard things we've faced this year. Or our loved ones have faced. When I need to put on a brave face to make it through something I'm not sure I can do I reach into myself and find my 'Touch Points'. When I'm my most scared or nervous I look back at the things that were so hard for me to do and I remind myself I did those things. #Facts. I try to pull out 3 or 4 and I repeat them to myself out loud sometimes and remind myself, They are facts! They are things I've done. We've all gone through 'the hardest thing we've ever done in our life' - then more comes. So there's some weird comfort in knowing 'hey I got punched in the eye and I made it' We are getting through 2020, what ever that means for you. The world isn't going to end, we're going to wake up tomorrow and keep going. So...What's next?⁠⠀

Trauma⁠ I was sitting quietly as I drew this one, normally I listen to music as part of my process, but for this one it was just quiet. As I drew I was thinking about earlier in quarantine and what was going on with the protests, and the police viol… — **Trauma⁠**
I was sitting quietly as I drew this one, normally I listen to music as part of my process, but for this one it was just quiet. As I drew I was thinking about earlier in quarantine and what was going on with the protests, and the police violence. And watching first hand accounts from protestors all over TikTok and Twitter. I was remembering how that was the part of this year where I couldn't sleep. I was obsessed with watching what was unfolding because it was really scary. I have watched more people actually die this year than in my entire life. I was watching people get hit by cars, I was watching police beat the shit out of people who couldn't move, I watched someone get shot [and later they died] on a live stream. It was so, so much. Then I thought about all the things being said, and all the fast paced news cycles and allllll of that. Hearing triggering and traumatic phrases about women, their bodies, and people disappearing. Then following along and seeing more so than I have before Justice not be served over and over and over. We all saw these things, not just me. Some people have been seeing these things WAY before 2020. But still, We stay home to work, or we go out and risk it, and we kind of quietly adapted to the Pandemic over solving it...and I have to remind myself. This was so much harder than it needed to be. And if I feel like I need a minute to myself, not to be so hard on myself for it. This year has forever changed my behavior. And I don't even know all the ways it has yet. So, Just a reminder to y'all. You do NOT have to adapt to something that's not normal. This *gestures vaguely* is not normal. ⁠

A Distant Letter Since the pandemic and lockdowns became a part of my life back in March, I've followed the guide lines outlined by the CDC. I've socially distanced, I've been getting tested, I do see friends on occasion, outside, in a park. But I h… — **A Distant Letter**
Since the pandemic and lockdowns became a part of my life back in March, I've followed the guide lines outlined by the CDC. I've socially distanced, I've been getting tested, I do see friends on occasion, outside, in a park. But I haven't seen my actual family in person or hugged or touched any human in 7 months. It makes you kinda weird. I'd never really thought about it before. I've never really been a naturally touchy feely person but when you CAN'T be that way, its interesting how it sits in your mind. How frustrating it can be. More than anything I just want to hold a person's hand. I know when that moment comes back, it's going to feel so weird...like I'm not supposed to be doing it. There's something to be said about being around the 'vibe' of humans in person. Virtually talking to someone is stimulating, but it's not the same. I've been thinking a lot about all of those facets of our social needs as animals. I think that's what makes isolation hard for people, in any circumstance, it's hard to feel alone, when you know you actually aren't alone. That nuance is what makes your mind crazy. All I want to do, is touch you. ⁠⠀

Protect Black Women This isn't an original graphic from me, this is from Megan Thee Stallions SNL Performance of "Savage". I don't know who created her graphics but they were amazing.⁠⠀ .⁠⠀ I'm disappointed that so many other white women voted again… — **Protect Black Women**
This isn't an original graphic from me, this is from Megan Thee Stallions SNL Performance of "Savage". I don't know who created her graphics but they were amazing.⁠⠀
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I'm disappointed that so many other white women voted against their interests. And it's not even a 'trump vs biden' or 'democrat vs republican' thing. It hurts because after hearing all the things everyone says about women, rights, agency to their bodies, etc it feels like 'you're saying this is ok?'. But listening to black women talk about how that fact makes them feel REALLY hurts. Malcolm X said “The most disrespected person in America is the Black woman. The most unprotected person in America is the Black woman. The most neglected person in America is the Black woman.” Black women showed up, Black women have BEEN showing up. Marching with all of us, protecting all of us, fighting for all of us. Dealing with so much bullshit. Literally, the least the rest of us could do is return the favor. Couldn't even do that....again. ⁠⠀
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I am just so disappointed. I am just so sorry. I am so sorry to the 91% of the Black women who came out to protect all of us, and we can't even fucking return the favor. I am sorry for the way this national picture looks, I am sorry for the way y'all are treated. I'm sorry so many of us aren't at this party, or were late to this party. I will do better, I will make sure others do better. I appreciate you. I love you. I can never repay you for where we've gotten because of you. I will spend the rest of my days trying to return this grace you've given all of us, since the beginning. ⁠⠀

2020 Pandemic [U.S]